Thursday, September 3, 2009
Where did my time go?
I feel like I have been living in a whirlwind this week. Work started off fine, then became increasingly frustrating. My son is starting to FEEL the demands that third grade has to offer. So hard for those kiddos! I am starting to feel the pain of having to let go of him, allow him to make mistakes, console him while he's crying, assuring him I will always be there for him. This is especially hard for my Nathan who is SO clumsy, unorganized, and as far from independent as you can get. My afternoons I have spent doing about an hour of homework, meltdowns in between, and then supper. Then, helping Mari Morgan with some of her work. AUGHHHHH! I feel like my head is going to explode- not ready for these kinds of actions. I have worried myself sick this week for no reason. God promises me that he can carry me above the storm. But, it's times like this, when I want to crawl in a cave and just let the storm roll on over. Wow, did God know what he was doing when he did not give me a full time teaching job! But, He always knows what is best. I'm hanging on, knowing He never lets go of me!