I wake up exhausted, yet go about my day as usual. Get ready for school, jump in the truck with Brian(remember, I can't drive yet), teach until 2:30, do homework with the kids, stress about what's for dinner, hoping we have enough money to eat out, :) although I am aware that is is so unhealthy, try to get a little schoolwork done, go to kids' activities, a little more schoolwork, pick up some around the house, spend atleast 5 minutes with my kiddos, a little more schoolwork, try to spend time with Brian, go to bed, get up and do it all over again.
Sound familiar???? Your life too, maybe!
This morning I stayed home from school because I felt yucky. I have been reading my Bible and talking to God. I told Him.... I just need peace. More than being a mom that worries about what to eat, if my house will EVER be clean again, my husband in the ministry-being pressed by all that involves, more than worrying about what is really wrong with me, or if I will have a seizure today, or if I will have what it takes to finish out this year strong at school-so much pressure, if my kids know I love them for who they are, if my husband knows how I truly love his faithfulness, if the Lord will wash over Riverbend with blessing..... the list goes on and on...
This is what I came across this morning; "The Lord bless you and keep you;the Lord make His face shine upon you, and be gracious to you,; the Lord lift up His countenance upon you, and give you peace."
Peace,then, can only be defined by God,given by Him, and bestowed upon the heart as the crowning prize when every trace of ourself has surrendered to the Father's will.
- Patricia Hickman
I know I can only find true peace when I give all of this stuff to Him. Lord, help me do that.
So, how am I doing? Making it....striving for His peace!